Yume Connection Cover Photo Rant+ Personal Rant+ Page 6th Year Anniversary
Okay, I may have finished the prelude and the first chapter, but then I discovered I didn't draw the cover photo.
And then I started freaking out.
Those pictures are damn important and I forgot about it. So now I have ~5 days to figure out what I'm supposed to do. They say "don't judge a book by its cover", but in reality, there are definitely people who do. All the pictures I have of Yume Connection only have Ayumi with the exception of the Wattpad cover. I don't really have an official image for Cyan yet either. I know I sorta wrote it down in the Yume Connection Characters Page but it's not a definitely image. His image, and name has always been changing. Even his personality is a pain. (I'm not sure whether he's a go-getter or a lay back and enjoy kind of person.)
Soon I will have to decide but for the cover I am deciding whether Cyan should even be in the shot. But then... he's also a main character....
Hmmm...
Meanwhile in my personal life... My hair has never looked so good. Maybe it's because I've been sleeping for an average of 6 and a half hour this week compared to 5 and 45 minutes and my skin has been looking better. I've also been eating a lot healthier than I've been at school. Should I cut my hair shorter? I think I'm going to try to grow out my hair again. Once I start working, I'm going to have to start studying as well. Sadly enough, I may lose more and more of my social life in my opinion. But at this rate, I realized I should start trying to save my confidence and optimism.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5e_cbtp4Yo0
Icon for Hire- Hope of Glory
Towards the end of college, I've been super anxious and that made me prone to feeling depressed. I failed a math class. But, I failed it on purpose too. I tried, but I could've dropped it. I refused. I felt that if I dropped it, I would've lost myself.
I look at the past me as a someone who gives everything a chance. And today, I admire that self. I'm not sure when did I start feeling less like myself. When did I become so anxious that I would start blanking out on test? When did I forget my confidence?
I know I think awfully a lot about other's opinions of me. I don't know since when did I end up doing this. For the longest time, if I like someone else I wouldn't have the confidence to tell because I don't feel like I like myself. No, I don't want to kill myself. But there's a lot of social norms that I don't want to be when I try to change myself. I feel... increasingly pressured to be someone I'm not in order to fit in.
There were a few people in high school where I didn't have to hide myself. But in college, I feel like there are even fewer ... actually almost no one.
This Webtoon is an attempt to redeem a little bit of my own confidence and happiness. It combines things I like in a way that I can somewhat manage. I like storytelling. I like art. I've been doing both for years. Is my audience high? No. But I want to do something new that makes me feel more useful.
I want to interact with new people that makes me feel better about myself. There are a lot of people that I meet, but I feel like a lot of them are a bit gloomy, a bit judgmental, and a bit unappreciative of life.
For the longest time, managing websites/blogs have been my... wait.. Today is the 6th year anniversary of me opening this blog. OMG....
I didn't realize but here, have the artwork that will never be fully in the YC webtoon then...
Okay back to topic. This blog, although I really don't post much blog post per say, but it has helped me liked myself in the past. And I hope to bring it back as an active blog again.
Thanks for reading this entire rant/post... even I don't know what it is.
Also look forward to Yume Connection June 2nd on Webtoons and the Wednesday updates of YC on Wattpad.
Note: I self-diagnosed my panic/anxiety attacks. But I do not think I have panic/anxiety disorder. Nor do I think I have depression. I don't take pills or medication for relief of any sort. Exercise tends to help me manage my feelings a lot and in college I didn't really exercise/ eat as healthy as I should had. I think because of my actions, they drew more of these feelings. These last few weeks I have been home, eating whatever I want to make because I actually have ingredients and a kitchen to make things. Yesterday I went visit my badminton team (practically two hour transit one way) and I played until I was sore. I might start asking to go play badminton more. Summer is my recovery story and time and I need to make the best out of it!
And then I started freaking out.
Those pictures are damn important and I forgot about it. So now I have ~5 days to figure out what I'm supposed to do. They say "don't judge a book by its cover", but in reality, there are definitely people who do. All the pictures I have of Yume Connection only have Ayumi with the exception of the Wattpad cover. I don't really have an official image for Cyan yet either. I know I sorta wrote it down in the Yume Connection Characters Page but it's not a definitely image. His image, and name has always been changing. Even his personality is a pain. (I'm not sure whether he's a go-getter or a lay back and enjoy kind of person.)
Soon I will have to decide but for the cover I am deciding whether Cyan should even be in the shot. But then... he's also a main character....
Hmmm...
Meanwhile in my personal life... My hair has never looked so good. Maybe it's because I've been sleeping for an average of 6 and a half hour this week compared to 5 and 45 minutes and my skin has been looking better. I've also been eating a lot healthier than I've been at school. Should I cut my hair shorter? I think I'm going to try to grow out my hair again. Once I start working, I'm going to have to start studying as well. Sadly enough, I may lose more and more of my social life in my opinion. But at this rate, I realized I should start trying to save my confidence and optimism.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5e_cbtp4Yo0
Icon for Hire- Hope of Glory
Towards the end of college, I've been super anxious and that made me prone to feeling depressed. I failed a math class. But, I failed it on purpose too. I tried, but I could've dropped it. I refused. I felt that if I dropped it, I would've lost myself.
I look at the past me as a someone who gives everything a chance. And today, I admire that self. I'm not sure when did I start feeling less like myself. When did I become so anxious that I would start blanking out on test? When did I forget my confidence?
I know I think awfully a lot about other's opinions of me. I don't know since when did I end up doing this. For the longest time, if I like someone else I wouldn't have the confidence to tell because I don't feel like I like myself. No, I don't want to kill myself. But there's a lot of social norms that I don't want to be when I try to change myself. I feel... increasingly pressured to be someone I'm not in order to fit in.
There were a few people in high school where I didn't have to hide myself. But in college, I feel like there are even fewer ... actually almost no one.
This Webtoon is an attempt to redeem a little bit of my own confidence and happiness. It combines things I like in a way that I can somewhat manage. I like storytelling. I like art. I've been doing both for years. Is my audience high? No. But I want to do something new that makes me feel more useful.
I want to interact with new people that makes me feel better about myself. There are a lot of people that I meet, but I feel like a lot of them are a bit gloomy, a bit judgmental, and a bit unappreciative of life.
For the longest time, managing websites/blogs have been my... wait.. Today is the 6th year anniversary of me opening this blog. OMG....
I didn't realize but here, have the artwork that will never be fully in the YC webtoon then...
Okay back to topic. This blog, although I really don't post much blog post per say, but it has helped me liked myself in the past. And I hope to bring it back as an active blog again.
Thanks for reading this entire rant/post... even I don't know what it is.
Also look forward to Yume Connection June 2nd on Webtoons and the Wednesday updates of YC on Wattpad.
Note: I self-diagnosed my panic/anxiety attacks. But I do not think I have panic/anxiety disorder. Nor do I think I have depression. I don't take pills or medication for relief of any sort. Exercise tends to help me manage my feelings a lot and in college I didn't really exercise/ eat as healthy as I should had. I think because of my actions, they drew more of these feelings. These last few weeks I have been home, eating whatever I want to make because I actually have ingredients and a kitchen to make things. Yesterday I went visit my badminton team (practically two hour transit one way) and I played until I was sore. I might start asking to go play badminton more. Summer is my recovery story and time and I need to make the best out of it!
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