Unsensed Clairvoyance

It's a short update. Maybe blogging does help me feel more composed.  It's that point where I'm not struggling yet but I feel the impending doom.  As I am writing this, I am finishing up a Lab Report due in two days. I wrote ~5 chapters of Yume Connection in a week and is up to Chapter 15 in writing out the story! My advisor was extremely impressed with how much I wrote. To be honest, I'm not sure how I managed to write that much. It is possibly because I've been on public transit often in the past week. I also did some light sketching of Ayumi on my Instagram! Although I'm not struggling, I feel really busy yet extremely free at the same time. I didn't realize it but from Monday to Saturday, I have 5 meetings! (Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday) This excludes classes. I also have been translating Shin Won Ho from Cross Gene 's Blog "Shin-Kun Yoru no Chuusday" for now until the future. I've been learning a lo...

It's the end of the second week of school. Some feelings hasn't changed... there's a weight in my heart but I can't change everything right now. There's a lot of really negative feelings thrown into the mix. Envy, laziness, hopelessness, and especially lack of confidence and trust to other people. There's really not that many people I trust with my feelings. I would feel completely judged and I'm a bother so I stopped telling people and reverted back into my invisible turtle shell. One day, I just felt so bad and broken I just let my feelings spill a little to my best friend. I trust her. She calmed me down enough to stay sane and not enter proactive crying.  (Ultimate stress relief is to cry for a couple of hours) "The one side of you that didn't fit, doesn't mean the part that doesn't fit is bad." That quote in milliseconds snapped me back to sanity. I'm still surrounded by loved ones for reasons. Whether or not I lik...