Unsensed Clairvoyance

This post is a post of frustration. There's trauma involved. I'm extremely traumatized by the event last year. There has been me even fluctuating between wanting to do it or not. But in the end, I signed up for it and I've been doing my job. However, I'm extremely upset about one thing. Someone is doing the job by forcefully trying to fix everything. They are being too ambitious. Things need to be fixed, but you can't fix everything in one go! That's insane. https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-28605/10-signs-your-own-ambition-is-working-against-you.html We have looked into many things we can change, with advice from general attendees from school as well as volunteers. Those things are accounted for. But there are things that aren't. Another thing is, you can't be doing someone's job without them knowing. If you get frustrated by people doing the same, then stop doing it to others! If you think you are helping, you aren't. I'm a perso...

There's a part of me who struggles to understand why I am who I am today. Why I make the choices I make today. Whether it's my love life, my cultural background, my hobbyist personality, I choose to have a guard around them all.  There's always a part of who struggles with my love life. I admit it, I'm a romantic in the head. I like being teased, spoiled, and the idea of cuddling. I like corny-ass romantic poems, rom-coms, and cheesy love songs. 80% of the time, I enjoy cliche stories.  Mia: Roses are red Violets are blue You may not know But someone loves you Michael: Roses are red Violets are blue You may not know it But I love you too  (The most iconic love poem from my teenage dream romance---Princess Diaries: Princess in Love by Meg Cabot) But at the same time, I don't trust what I feel a lot. I'm the type that will dream and right before the dream's best moment, I hide like a startled turtle for fear it's actually too good to ...