Balancing Time and Ambition

This post is a post of frustration.

There's trauma involved. I'm extremely traumatized by the event last year. There has been me even fluctuating between wanting to do it or not. But in the end, I signed up for it and I've been doing my job.

However, I'm extremely upset about one thing. Someone is doing the job by forcefully trying to fix everything. They are being too ambitious. Things need to be fixed, but you can't fix everything in one go! That's insane.

https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-28605/10-signs-your-own-ambition-is-working-against-you.html

We have looked into many things we can change, with advice from general attendees from school as well as volunteers. Those things are accounted for. But there are things that aren't.
Another thing is, you can't be doing someone's job without them knowing. If you get frustrated by people doing the same, then stop doing it to others!

If you think you are helping, you aren't. I'm a person that the person should understand more than anyone, yet the person is blinded by the goals and losing track of what we need NOW to change and improve.

If there's 3 things that make up 90%, and 50 that makes up 10%, the person will want to focus on 100% when it's impossible for us to fix all 53 things. Sometimes, when you solve the big issues, the little issues solve itself as well. We also can't cater to any one person with a silver spoon.

It's because the person has nothing else to do. The person worries and frets, because there's nothing to do in the person's hands. And they don't look at others. The person forget that there are people who know what they are doing, and there are people who, well, don't. For many of them, this is their first time writing out an entire contract. Although I self-learned a lot of it, if I were in the first person's shoes--afraid of messing up, I'd just keep following the format, regardless if it made complete sense to me.

I see, that other members are struggling not just with this stuff but other stuff. So I find the time to help them. But the person? I don't see the person really trying to relieve the stress of anyone except mine-- BUT I DON'T NEED IT. I didn't ask for it, nor is my job so complicated that I would need help. It only confuses me when I see it done. When I asked the person if they wanted me to help them, I asked them if they want me to help them with it. So I didn't 100% do it. But helped them see what we can do to fix things.
If you don't want group-think to happen, you can't impose your thoughts on others and forcefully make things happen.

Some roles are minor in the beginning and they grow to be major. Some roles--well... are never major. But when we try to make a big complicated issue more complicated when a.) we don't have the finances to do so, b.) we have people who are already decent at handling the issue.

I don't want this to be a war and the best thing is to talk to them personally. But I don't want to. It's going to be awkward. I don't see things in the lens anymore. I worry about them. A lot. There's only so much we can handle. But at this rate, I can see them getting themselves into Faustian bargain very soon.

There's too much anxiety, panicking, and maniac pacing going on.

You are only causing trauma to more people. You are only going to burn out yourself, burn out others, and cause a reign of terror that you didn't mean to make.

You're going to pull the trigger and regret it, and feel more and more empty.

I'm not saying that people shouldn't be ambitious. It's good to have clear goals. However, when you start being blinded by your goals, and other can't envision the same goals, you have an issue. When someone is telling you that you need to slow down, you probably do need to slow down even if there's no visible sign ahead.