Season of Rain
I believe in attraction at first sight. But love? But love has to be maintained. Or else it'll never be real. I just finished watching Moon River. And, it made me think. And made me start to worry. Again, I'm being negative. I have anxiety regarding that I won't get into college (not accepted...anywhere yet). I have anxiety regarding that I won't be properly liked. But I already decided, until I am done with college stuff, I shouldn't have any feelings related. I have anxiety regarding that everyone I know as friends will leave me soon. I don't feel comfortable telling anyone anything directly. I feel like I'm forcing myself. When did I become so cautious about what other people think? When am I going to stop hiding behind the mask, filled with fake joy and loneliness? These lines really make me want to write a love story. But... I feel like if I do, I will hurt myself with my own feelings again. I feel like secluding myself from everything. I