Fear
Being told "I love you" freezes me up. I seriously question the sanity of all the boys who had a crush on me. I am baffled rather-- Why me? I don't see myself suitable... The last two boys that asked me out were younger than me. That makes me even more confused. I've always been curious. But regardless why, I swallow my guilt every time I see one of them. One of them, is no longer speaking to me due to it. And I feel extremely guilty for not reciprocating and possibly leading him on for a year. It was just not the right timing for me when he asked me out. I was already pretty much not considering it anymore, especially since I knew it for so long. The latest boy who asked me out, luckily ended in a brighter note at the very least. I am actually bewildered to know that he has caught feelings for me. I didn't spend that much time with him. I really didn't think much of it at first. If those ever read this blog, I hope they know: I really didn't mean to