Jin Akanishi’s Pinocchio was released in 2016, but only recently have I felt like I resonated with it. In a way, I put up with a lot of things to avoid conflict because drama is troublesome, and would end up feeling like a shitty puppet because it makes me sort of a pushover. I don’t really release my feelings of being uncomfortable, and as a result people get uncomfortable around me as well and disappear. I guess it’s the drawback of being an introvert. I have my walls built up, so no one is around. However, relationships get cutoff when communication stops. For that very fact, it’s a little disappointing when I come back for break and can’t find anyone to hang out with. I guess I’m destined to die from loneliness because I’m scared to scare people off with my feelings and interests. I’m told college is the best time of my life, but I feel controlled. There’s a formula to succeed in life and I have to follow it or risk it everything, while being a lost hope towards my parents.
